Hello from Gloria's "home care service"! HA!
We are on Day 13 since Larry's surgery. We thank God these thirteen days are behind us. We have walked miles of emotions, concerns, tensions, smiles, questions and at times, near tears.
No, I am not on a PITY run; we are on a REALITY walk. Before Larry had the surgery to relieve the compression of his spinal cord, my optimistic Larry thought and voiced, "In two weeks, I'll feel much better and in four weeks, at the most, I'll be back on the road!" It sounded good, but it definitely isn't possible. He has been in such good health that until this saga began about nine months ago, he didn't know what weakness and this kind of pain was. If he were honest, I think at this point, Larry could write a "mini-chapter" on pain.
On Sunday morning, our granddaughter Myanna and I were getting ready to go to church, and Larry had been sitting in a chair for about 15 minutes before the pain and discomfort forced him to lie back down. I tiptoed up to the side of his bed, smiled and chirped, "Hey---Hey-Hey-Hey, Hey, Hey! You can't be laying there. We have a church service in 45 minutes!" Then I giggled, "Wow, Larry, aren't you glad you aren't on duty this morning?" He wearily responded with a tinge of sadness, "Yeah." There are very few Sundays that he is not preaching so I knew this was hard for him.
So many dear friends, family and partners have e-mailed and inquired about his therapy and recovery. For these first four weeks, they want him to walk as much as possible to regain his strength and balance. Yesterday we rejoiced that we were able to walk three blocks. It doesn't sound like much to an athlete or avid walker/runner, but since his surgery and this journey, this was a real victory.
We are staying at our daughter, LaDawn's, townhouse. To go for a walk, our first challenge is to walk down a flight of 16 steps before we get to the landing to proceed outside. It often wears him out by the time he gets down there. With the extreme heat wave last week, I drove him over to Sam's and I offered assistance as he walked the long aisles. Larry doesn't fight to go to Sam's to walk as I have a great reward program. "You walk these several aisles and you will get your treat!" (Those with pets know this trick...you bribe to get the outcome you desire!) With Larry, this works very well. When he gets to the end zone of his walk and the deli and snack center comes into view, he smiles real big as I order a four berry sundae. He feels the walk is worth it!
Due to the surgery on the back of his neck and the incision on the front where they inserted a titanium piece to secure his spine, his stitches and his throat incisions are still swollen so he still needs to eat little bites of soft food that he won't choke on. He adds...."The four berry sundae will definitely help make me healthy." HA!
Larry describes this current pain challenge, "I feel like I am trying to balance a 100 pound bag of potatoes on my head, and it really hurts." As of yet, he is still only able to sit for about 15 minutes and can only stand about 5 minutes unless he's walking. He struggles to lie down and find a comfortable position for his neck and head without experiencing pain.
The good news is however....everything is going to get better! So far today, his eyes look better, his voice sounds better and he's cracking jokes....all positive signs of healing!
I just want to add this... when we start our journey to go down those 16 steps, I have to admit I am very nervous and concerned as he cannot bend his head down to see the steps. I'm thankful there is a handrail from top to bottom to balance and support him. Since I am his nervous Norwegian nurse, I have to be sure he doesn't fall. I don't go down the steps before him as he might fall on me (that has happened once, and we don't want that to happen again; we both would end up in body casts in a care center). I let him hold the rail with his left hand and I hold his right arm to steady and balance him.
Yesterday as we were descending the staircase, I was a bit nervous and I felt God reassuring me, "Gloria, don't try to go ahead of Me as you may stumble and fall. Gloria, don't lag behind Me or you won't hear My voice. Stay right close by My side where you can feel the warmth of My presence and hear My encouraging voice. Rest in Me, and I will see you two through this long recovery." I needed that holy moment and the visual it provided to calm my spirit.
This morning, I was comforted by the verses in Psalm 46:1 and 10, "God is our refuge and strength-a very present help in trouble. " "Be still and know that I am God." I take those verses personally and they minister to me!
Whatever you are facing today, know that God is waiting for you to come close to His side, listen to His voice and rest in Him.
Gloria